Hey Mac, a lot of us are still here, but not saying much

I've been hot and cold surfing this last year or so. Back issues, and nerve pain etc keeping me from wanting to surf. However the lack of civility in the water is the main thing that keeps me from heading out into a crowd. On the Northern Beaches, there are a few spots where the crew are great, however in my experience there are a lot more breaks where the crew are just selfish, self entitled newbies to the sport and haven't really understood what it's really about. They're more worried about getting every wave they can and not caring about anyone else in the water. In the last 8 weeks of of our current lockdown, our beaches have been insanely crowded. At the moment, the beaches are busier on the weekends than a non-Covid summer Sunday ever was! I've only surfed a few weekday mornings, and usually only when the weather is a bit cold, or overcast keeping the crowds down. On weekends I don't bother. I don't need the aggravation.
Which means, in turn, that I'm less fit and less able to surf well when I do get in the water. That in turn makes me less likely to want to get in the water, and so it goes. A vicious cycle of talking myself out of going in, rather than being keen to get wet regardless. Hopefully I'll get the wheels back in motion soon, I think I just need a road trip to get up the coast and away from the city to help that along.